Warm Days in January

Times change and people with them. THEY ARE NOT WHO THEY USE TO BE!! We all change what determines who we are, are the influences of the people around us. You know it amazes me how at times I think that people fit perfectly together and they are both good people and then due to their influences on each other they change into people who you no longer know. I AM TIRED OF LOSING ALL MY FRIENDS TO CHANGE!!!! But the funny thing is that I see it in myself as well. But the changes in my life to me seem like they are positive ones. Right now I have a more positive view on life than ever before. Right now I have found Blue Eyes and I know I have changed because of her. I have changed for the better but I have the realization that I have to work harder at my other relationships to keep them. We see change as a bad thing maybe it is because we have all sacrificed one relationship or friendship for another that seems to be worth more. We view change as bad and try to stop it from happening but without change it would always be winter, without change it would always be raining, without change life would be a rut, without change there would be no tomorrow, without change their would be know you. So change will come and as seasons change, and the weather changes, as our routines change, and our days change so must we change. Change for one another or change from one another.

My Thoughts: Friends are the seasons of life, ever changing, coming and going. But who will be the warm day in January?

I'm Sorry

"I'm Sorry" You know I feel like I have been saying that allot lately.

"I'm sorry I am didn’t call you back, I'm sorry I'm late, I am sorry I don’t come home to visit more often, I am sorry I am a bad friend, I'm sorry I didn’t get my homework in on time, I am sorry if I made you feel that way, I am sorry If I am a bad boyfriend. God I am sorry I am not a better Christian. I'm Sorry!"

You know I don’t think that I truly realize the meaning of the word any more. It is so overused in my vocabulary that it is just a common no-brainer response, "I'm Sorry." Why do we even say, because we get busted doing something we really shouldn’t have done. What happens if you don’t get busted? What of the times that you are busted by your conscience. What it is supposed to me is that you recognize your faults and you will work hard to change them or to right the situation. But then sometimes sorry comes when there is nothing else that can be done and the feeling of remorse takes over. You know I think I have one thing figure about the definition. I recognize my faults. How can me not when I have so many of them staring me in the face. The reason I say it is because I get busted either by God, myself, or others but constantly my faults rise to the surface and I am face with the fact that I did something wrong and I am wrong because of it. But do I really make an effort to change. Sometimes I feel like I have been doing wrong for so long I don’t even know what right is. When I say it I want it to be from my heart, not from my innate response system.

My Thoughts: I cant promise that I will can make everything right or even mean this as honestly as I should but to those of you who apologies are in order I truly do apologize for my/our shortcomings and I truly am sorry for my/our mistakes.