Fire Crackilers

Well it is a pleasant Thursday and I am the only one in the office this morning and after lunch today i am heading to Abilene to hang out with my friends (because i love you guys) and then tomorrow i am heading to the L-B-K aka L-Town aka Home aka Lubbock gonna hang out with the fam a little maybe see some friends celebrate a little 4th of July action maybe shoot (not get shot again) some fire crackilers with my peeps ya know the normal stuff.

So i have so much more appreciation for my youth pastors now. Because all week i have started working on the D-Now that my youth group is going to be doing and it has been just so much stuff and this was just the first week. The week of our D-Now is going to be insane but the Lord is really opening some awesome windows and opportunities so it is going to be really cool to see that he is going to do.

I hope you all have a blessed day

ok so i am going to try this picture thing

This is my friend (and RA) Purkey...he is...well...special
This is Luke and Haley the pic is a year old but it is one of my favorites
This is Trevor he is amazing at the guitar and he is my friend...and thats all i have to say about
that
This is Shane at the cemetery...you just keep doing you thing man
This is Wade, Chris, and Shane, as they ponder the worlds greatest mystery...If the Interstate Highway system connects states (hints the name INTER-state) where do the Interstates in Hawaii go?

My Thoughts: Pics of my friends...its a good thing

Comedy Tragedy

So it has been a while since i posted and stuff so i decided to post today. Since i last posted i had the opportunity to go see the Atlanta Braves play in Arlington and i am sad to report that i while i showed up for the game the braves did not and let me down with a 7-3 loss. To top it ALL OFF my friends who will remain name less...cough cough...perky and jenna...cough cough...were not very nice to me after this devastating blown to my emotional inner child and then i exclaimed to them the most feared and dreaded of words...Friendship Off... their friendship was later reinstated...but then later turned back off...but then later turned back on...but then later turned back off again...i am not sure if it is currently on or off...so anyways.

On a more serious note i had the unfortunate experience of having to go to a funeral for someone that many thought was to young to die...Jenn i am sorry and i will continue to pray for all of you...the funny thing is everyone who thinks he was to young to die don't know what it is like, to be in heaven, to no longer feel the pain of cancer, to no longer cry, to longer struggle, and to be in the arms of Christ...wow i say he is that fortunate one here. So David Gilbert i regret that i knew you in reputation only but your life is one that effects people you have never met and will continue to spread the good news of Christ.

My Thoughts: Being in the arms of my savior...will be a glorious thing

Shout Out to Friends

Ok so i have decided to write a post to all my friends:

Christopher Bruce - Hey dude i just wanted to thank you for how awesome of an encouragement you are to me. I have had a blast this past year and next year is going to be even better. I am praying for you and your kids and hopefully i will get to visit.

Summer - Hey kiddo i was just gonna say that you are the coolest person ever. You are always encouraging and the least complicated girl i know. I miss you and am praying for you.

Shane - Man you are the craziest awesomest person in my life and probably the most fun to stay up late at wataburger eating a triple while enjoying a delicious shake with to. You are an incredible man of God and a true friend.

Wade - O wade what can i say except thanks for being a grandfather to us all...jk. Man i cant wait for the year to start back so that we may re institute Thursday night Frisbee. Thanks for always letting me crash at your place.

Jenna - Wow watch out for those thunder storms . Thanks for always being you. I feel like i can truly trust you...and that is a lot. Although we make fun of your age you show an incredible amount of maturity (at least more than me ) and discernment.

Kristi - Hey i am so excited that you are coming to HSU and i am looking forward to getting to know you more. Thanks for your encoruagment.

Danielle - Hey kid even though your music is a little messed up at times i guess we can still be friends

Purkey - Next year is going to be awesome. Thanks for begin you and by that i mean thanks for begin such an awesome friend

Ashby - Hey even though your tree buying quirks are a little overboard i guess that you are cool enough . And thanks for being the only girl to actually fill out the dating application. You are an amazing woman of God ands always encouraging.

Kingz - Have fun up in Canada # 2 and dont forget that you are a cowgirl (and don't say "soda pop")

Carrie - You and Cass are the greatest sisters in the entire world i miss you both and love you

Aleigh - Have fun doing your thousands of hours of summer school Thanks for always being there

If i forgot you just holla and i will add you to the list

My Thoughts:Smiley Faces...its a good thing

Condition

Ok so it has been a while since i put something deep or poetic on here so here goes.

Condition

I'm tired of living life betweens broken hopes of love. I am longing to risk, to chance, to fight, but when all is at all I just haven't found one worth it. I am tired of watching the world pass by while i am still standing here wondering where everyone else is going while i find myself angry that i cant go to. In the end i blame myself for not being like everyone else. Originality is supose to be a good thing? We are all supose to be Individuals? I am supose to be myself? If i am supose to be myself and original why do i feel like those words are damning me. I am tired of being me. Because i decided that i am not good enough for anyone else. It isn't that I am not accepted..after a while they all accept me. It is the fact that i don't want them to because i feel like that in order to gain that acceptance they must be lowered to where i am. Am i a charity for you lovers who say to your significant other, "Ahhh look how pitiful he is. He looks like he needs help. So lets throw to him the scraps off our table of life so that he may enjoy whatever fulfilling pleasures of life we have LEFT OVER." So where does that put me now? With a fake smile, and a convincing but empty "Thank You" to those who i discover don't really care for me. If i could only wake up to see the morning sun scatter through the blinds, but that is only wishful thinking. And the only thing that wishes bring are letdowns.

My Thoughts: Depressing Writting...might not be such a good thing

The Friendship I Needed

Okay so yesterday was awesome and exactly what i needed. I got to hang out and just be around several different people who just really gave me the encouragement that i have needed. Me and Jenna left and drove to Dallas she dropped me off at Six Flags where i got to meet my Dad's new Youth Pastor Kyle and got to hang out with them for a couple hours with their youth then i met up with Lindsey and Ashley Adams, and Rachel Hutchins and just hang out and ride roller coasters with them. On the way back to Abilene me and Jenna got stuck in the worst storm i have ever been out in while driving, it was so bad we had to pull off the road and it was really scary but we managed to make it back. Then i got to hang out with a lot of my H-SU friends and i even go to see Summer...ALL THAT SAID it just amazes me that God knows exactly what i need. He knew i was lonely and then blessed me with a day like that. It just makes me that much more joyful in my heavenly father.

My Thoughts: God's blessings of friendship...ITS AN AMAZING THING